Last night I pulled one of my old diaries off the shelf (they actually take up the whole shelf). I used to write a dairy pretty regularly ... and then along came blogging. Anyhow, I pulled it down because I was interested to read back about how I felt when I was about this much pregnant with E.
Because it was four years ago, I have forgotten the ins and outs of what happens in pregnancy. I have also had very little opportunity to be introspective about this one.
Looking back at what I wrote at about 6 months, I realised I was actually pretty anxious about what kind of mother I would be, how it would change me, would I cope... etc. This time round I have that part pretty much sorted (apart from the odd panic at, whoa, there will be two of them).
What's got me perplexed is the small stuff. Did sleeping on my side cause me so much bother this early on with E? Was I fitter than I am now (yes!) when I was having him? But, most intriguingly, did I get all this weird stuff happening to my body?????!!!
Weird it is.
Example 1: eyelid twitching. I have been known to get the odd twitch of the eye, but it's usually, like, twice a year for 30 seconds. Now? At least 20 times a day and only in my right eye. It had begun to irritate me so I did what any time-challenged 21st century mother would do: I consulted Dr Google. Lo and behold ... you type in 'eyelid twitching' and 'pregnancy' and there are heaps of Wiki questions and the like (no decent answers though!) from women who are in the same boat.
Example 2: leg cramps. This I don't understand. I have never had a serious calf cramp before about a week ago. I woke in the morning and moved to get out of bed - yowee - cramptastic. I recognised the symptoms straight away because Shaun gets them frequently. From now on I will be more sympathetic. They hurt.